Petals of Hopes

  This year seems to have gone by fast. I'm only one month away from 2023. Inshallah.  I am very grateful for what has happened this year. There are so many amazing things that God has given me that are very different from previous years.  The point is that I can get out of my comfort zone. I also met a lot of really nice people this year in the new city where I am. I have more and more contacts on my phone. I'm so touched. I hope next year I can get another gift from my God.  This year also, I have forgiven what kept me imprisoned all this time. Let go of everything that happened and forgive everyone. I almost shed tears while writing this. Thank you to God, who has given me gifts—the most beautiful gifts from Him.

It's been five days i am here. I moved here to start a new life and look for a job. I brought my cousin with me. We live in my brother's house. We look so comfortable here, so far. I want to say that this is the first city I've visited. Before, i never traveled anywhere. Also, this was the first time I went by plane. Eventhough I felt not good when i was in plane , but i was not regret it. I got an interview job yesterday. Now I am waiting for the announcement.   We do regular activities at my brother's house, like cooking, cleaning, purchasing daily needs at the market, and stuff. we look very enjoy to be in this city. We also looked around this city yesterday. This city is very organized. I love it. also looks sophisticated. I forgot to take pictures yesterday. Later, I will put on this post. I also bought some flowers from my hometown. This is the market where we bought fish, chicken, vegetables and more. ...

The best piece I've ever found is Claire de Lune by Claude Debussy. Still the best. I am playing it right now. It's soothing and calming. just like moonlight. The definition of Claire de Lune in English is Moonlight. My feeling towards this masterpiece, when i listen to it. It depends on the condition and situation. When I am sad or emotional, I sometimes play this masterpiece and immediately feel better.   During the day, I will walk along the windows. looking outside. I'm looking out at the little forest next to my house. Or I will sit quietly while looking at our garden in our backyard.  During the night, the solitude makes me confront things. Night and Claire de Lune are the best combo. Claire de Lune is also persuading myself to make me love my story more, every story in my life. What led me to become who I am right now? ...

The term minimalism is a simple life concept. Greedy for the world is a miserable thing. I personally will get stressed out if I see a lot of stuff that is not used. I will throw them out if they are not able to be worn or used anymore. For clothes, if they are getting smaller, I will give them to my little cousins. That means less stuff, but it also means less stress. This book has taught me a lot about living a simple life. Before, I was a girl who liked to buy anything without even thinking twice. I don't even save money. I have great regrets about that. I hope this is not too late. I am a bit surprised to see how the prophet taught a simple life but one high in value in every aspect. This book is a good reminder. I can read it every time I need to. Sometimes, I easily forget what I have read. I'm hoping to make this positive habit a part of my everyday routine. Simplify everything.

I stopped reading books and watching videos about self - improvement products . because they create unrealistic expectations . Besides life is a phenomenon process . Life is life . Now I prefer to read or watch about history, housekeeping, psychology , biology , astronomy , novel chemistry , fiqh , and so on . Sometimes self-improvement products are more fiction than fiction itself.

I really can't stand the heat. My body will relax if the temperature is under 28°C. But in the tropics, the temperature usually ranges from 30 °C to 35 °C during the day. especially in my country, Indonesia. So, we can only feel cold at night. because the temperature at night usually ranges from 27°C to 29°C. But, I still feel grateful, because in some countries, the temperature is higher. It is all because of global warming.   I am a typical homegirl. I don't go outside. I rarely leave the house. I only go if it is absolutely necessary. Sometimes, when I leave the house and spend about 30 minutes or more in the outdoors, I feel like my skin is burnt. It feels like it is really hot.    I put sunscreen on my face, hands, and legs. I also apply some cream after applying sunscreen to make sure my body and face are covered well. But still, my skin, especially on my face, is blushing. Not blushing because I am shy, but sort of getting inflamed. I guess my skin ty...

I wish I could grow more flowers and vegetables.  This morning I took pictures of flowers. I don't know the names of each of them.  I found a little bee inside this pink. It was beautiful. The yellow one is so much lovely. I preferred little flowers. They are cute and charming. just like little fairies. Rather than real, I preferred fiction. I always extend my imagination, that's how I make myself happy.  Today's plan is to fill some polybags with soil. My father and I will grow some chillies. But we still haven't had the seedlings yet. My father will buy them at the market on Saturday. So after we get them, we will put them right into the soil.  Let's grow more plants. 🌺🌺🌺🌺  

I returned to the village and my home. I am 26. I am anxious, not sure why. Last night, I found a great video about how stress can affect our whole lives and make them uncomfortable. Our thought is that a controller So I think, i must fake my happiness though, So it will make my body programmed become happy . Fake it till we make it. This morning was sunny, calm and beautiful. As always, I took a bunch of pictures to put here. I was so blessed to  have our house surrounded by nature. Our little garden sometimes relieves our tired soul. My parents, who always look after them, I thank them so much. I am still learning how to be a good gardener.

A Collection of the Prophet's Advices for Women I think studying Fiqh is very important for a woman because studying Fiqh can provide a solution to the problems that are being faced. Learning Fiqh can also make a woman know her rights and obligations as a woman on this earth. Learning Fiqh also makes a woman know what she should do and what she should not do. So I think the purpose of studying Fiqh for a woman is to become a pious woman. Women become so easy to live their own lives. When studying Fiqh women gain knowledge as well as manners. These two are important. The title of a pious ( shalihah ) woman is the highest title that is given by Allah Subhanahu Wa ta'ala.

I want to tell you about my last vacation with my family. The place is still in our region. So it didn't take energy to get there. Only 20 minutes by motorcycle. Along the roads we saw residential local housing mixed with the beauty of nature. When we arrived, We saw many people had been settling into their own place. This place is also good for picnics and swimming. We tried to find a place to sit together before we swam. The water was so clean and cold. The afternoon sunlight made the water clearer and shiny. We can see the riverbed because the rivel is shallow. So it's safe for swimming, especially for kids. We brought our little cousins and nephews here. when I was swimming I felt so refreshed in my soul. I can't actually swim in the pool or in deep water. I felt so much peace when i saw the beautiful green forest beside this big river. I found it hard to get out of this cold water. I plan to come back to this river sooner. ...

I came back again to this city, I have been staying at my friend's boarding house for more than a week. I came to this city to take my bachelor's degree certificate to my university.  My friend's room is on the second floor. There are two gates in this building. It makes me difficult to get down because it takes my energy. Because i'm a lazy girl. The bathroom is on the third floor. Of course it makes it more difficult for me to get up there, because every morning I always get a call from the toilet. Above all, it makes all problem dissapears because I don't know, why the weather has been so friendly to me since I came here. I used to feel freaking hot here, I was sick of the weather and for sleep in the night , I never used a blanket at all. But after almost a week here, I'm cold, even during the day, i wear socks and feel bad for not bringing blanket.  I cover myself with my friend's blanket , it gets colder around 3:00-7:00 am. But I love this...

Good morning friends and folks! it's a very beautiful morning. Because the rain keeps falling. The rain has not stopped since yesterday morning. I could not even go outside buy something to eat yesterday. Luckily I got stocks of some breads, eggs and instant noodle . But this morning i tried to go outside because my food was ruined. Of course it is still raining a lot then I borrowed my friend's umbrella. I should have bought an umbrella and prepared for the rainy season. I still got wet because the wind is blowing strongly. My skirt got soaked. But I have some food now. Thank God for that. I know some people love the rain, including me. Perhaps because rain is frequently interpreted as a form of emotion.  Many immortalize the phenomenon of rain accompanied by various words of wisdom. For example, "In London, the weather would affect me negatively. I react strongly to light. If it is cloudy and raining, there are clouds and r...

 Wishing each and every one of you have a blessed friday. I will be spending my weekend doing some tasks. But i will start on saturday to do it.  Today i'm binge-eating and watching. Some movie series I need to finish today. I will purchase some sweets to accompany me, especially chocolate and for instant noodle , of course it will not be forgotten. It is a must.  Fyi : I took the picture above about two months ago, i picked that pretty little flower to beautify my picture aesthetically. 

The first time I met that cute little baby was around six months ago. Before , I just met him virtually on whatsapp. He is my second nephew from my sister. His name is Sadiq. I have three nephews actually and I have never met them all. But luckily, I met with one of them , He is Sadiq. Well , I hope I can meet with the others too soon.    Right the moment when I met him directly, when I opened the door to greet Sadiq and his mother, that little baby gave his heavenly smile at me. I was so touched because of his cuteness overload. As if he wanted to meet me as well. That time his age is still five months. He kept looking at me, staring at me with his smiley face. The enthusiasm that my parents had was the same as me. The eagerness to meet with their grandchildren directly was kind of like true happiness. They will be happy instantly, especially if they hold him and make him sleep in their lap.  Can't wait for another chance to meet with my nephews again.